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24 March 2012

It's been a long time since I update this little space of mine.
School's been busy
But I'm not as motivated as last semester. Oh no
I should be writing for my essay which is due 5 days later
But I'm still at the reading phase

I want to do well for this semester too
But somehow I lost my motivation...

4 February 2012
Oh my... this is actually my first post of the year!
I'm to occupied during January, been busy with uncle's stuff and school
Time flies, it's already end of Week 4 and Week 5 will be starting soon.

I shall find some time to update this little space of time when I'm free!

OS: One more day to turning 22-year-old adult.

30 December 2011

This will be a contradicting post as compared to my previous one
For the past one week, my mood was like a roller coaster
But this is the nature of life...

23 December 2011, Friday
小舅舅 passed away on this day in his sleep

Nobody in the family expected it, as his health was all along good except that he was overweight and had hypertension, so this news was a shock to us.

The whole procedure was tedious, starting with various doctors refused to certify his death, since he was considered young (43 year old) with no serious health conditions. Hence there were reasons to suspect that it may be suicide or even murder. His body was sent for autopsy eventually. We could only collect the body the next day (24th Dec), which was Christmas Eve. There were numerous delay during collection, which just further made us feeling down. The funeral was held right after we collected his body as we do not have much relatives. It was a simple ceremony, as my maternal family practiced SOKA (Japanese Buddhism).

小舅舅 was the youngest out of the 6 siblings. The age gap between mummy and 小舅舅 was 12 years; hence mummy looked after him since he was born, from changing his diapers to bringing him to school/doctor. Therefore this was a huge blow for mummy and she almost fainted during the funeral. My eyes were already in a pain and swollen state by the end of 23rd, and not getting better on the 24th too.

This was how I spent my Christmas Eve. Everything happened too fast, there's no time for us to accept that he's no longer with us. It's gonna be a difficult time for my family, as 小舅舅 was born on the 1st of January (he didn't get to celebrate his birthday which was just a week away). Usually we will spend the first day of the year together, but now he is gone forever. And exactly a month's time after he pass on, which is 23 of January, will be the Chinese Lunar New Year. The festive mood is totally gone as well.

I miss his loud voice, his "scoldings"...

I find it creepy when I wore my black cardigan which I bought about 2 weeks ago for the first time to his funeral. I usually don't wear or buy black outfits, except for my black blazor. Previously when I buy cardigans/tops, I REFUSED to buy black, hence I don't know why I chose black upon purchased. Originally I intend to wear this black cardigan on the 23rd too (before we receive the news), but I find it too dull since Christmas was just 2 days away, hence ditched it aside. But eventually I wore the black cardigan, but for this reason. 注定的？I don't know. I just find it creepy.

The whole of November was all about rushing reports and presentations
After which was reading and studying week, followed by examinations
And finally Year 2 Semester 1 comes to an end
I need to replenish my sleep so badly during December

For the first time, I took an exam which allows students to bring one A4 double-sided paper
Of course, being me, can don't memorise then don't memorise
Squeeze almost everything on the lecture slides onto the cheat sheet



Small ba? Hehehe I'm proud of it :)
Exams ended on November 26, so that I can go for AMKFSC Family Day on the 27th
This is also my other reason for not taking counselling module, other than high bid points.
Woke up at 5am to get ready, and the whole event was held at Sentosa
I'm such a tortise, I didn't go to Sentosa for like 3 or 4 years?
So I'm quite amused by the sight of USS, so not Singapore.

Anyway, I can say that it's the worst volunteering experience I've ever had?
Like what I stated on Twitter, I feel like I'm being physically abused by 4 children
I'm not joking or exaggerating. Another volunteer and I were both tortured throughout
I guess it was traumatizing for the volunteer from RJC, since it was his first volunteering experience
Oh well, bad parenting skills, what can we as volunteers do?

On a side note, one of the 4 children drew this for me. I think it's cute.
Of course this happened before the torture started.
The little girl drew a man for me as well. Lols.



After family day, I went straight to help my aunt and cousin at an event.
Not bad uh, after being tortured by 4 children I still can go and earn money
No choice, I'm not rich afterall
Everything ended at 11pm plus, supper then home sweet home.

Time flies, and Semester One for Year Two is coming to an end
I can say that this semester is killing me.
But I also learnt alot too.

1 research proposal, 1 individual report, 1 community needs assessment report,
1 program proposal, 1 public education campaign, 1 website and 3 presentations
And the topics encompass elderly, youth, foreign brides, ex-offenders
Even though the workload is hectic, but I really learn alot from doing all different topics
Besides this, I got to work with different agencies too
Like AMKFSC, KKFSC, Yellow RIbbon, Halfway Houses
Interview Mr Inderjit Singh, the MP of Ang Mo Kio GRC
and got the chance to meet delegates from Guang Zhou as well
It's a memorable experience! :)

On the other hand, this semester also let me see the selfish side of some people in school
自私到我无话可说
I'm selfish too, but only a small extend as compared to their selfishness
But at least I'm considerate, willing to accomodate to others
Others? Wait long for them to accomodate.
Nevermind, it's never too early nor late to realize this

When I looked back at my past
My times in secondary school
Tears just fall uncontrollably

I don't want to think of the past
However, my life seems to be stuck at one point.
I thought I've move on in Poly
But apparently it stopped again

As one matures, the harsh reality starts to show its true colours
I don't dare to foresee my future
Really afraid...